Fooj's Ex-Blog

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 20:10:13 GMT

Check the userinfo page for information on what's happening here now, cos it ain't updates.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 21:16:50 GMT

Things are good just now. Let's hope it lasts, eh.

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 14:45:06 GMT

Thirty quid for a copy of The Twin Snakes. Oh, but I never realised being a Ninty fag was going to be this expensive...

EVERYBODY BUY A GODAMN WII SO THIS SHIT STOPS HAPPENING.

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 15:27:55 GMT

Hrm.

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 23:31:29 GMT

Right, that's it, we're getting Raul Julia's corpse and using dark magicks to bring him back to life. I cannot live in a world without Addams Family movies.

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 14:39:12 GMT

Flights all booked up for going to Brum in the first week of December. I've conned shuv into coming into Brum city for a day to hang about and shit. This would be right after I go to London on the 2nd/3rd, where I shall see Sol Invictus and meet Tom for the day.

Oh what a cosmopolitan life I lead.

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 23:09:03 GMT

<deathmetalx_core> u like sunn O)))
<dwfuji> Cant stand them.
<deathmetalx_core> ok
<dwfuji> Not a fan of drone-doom.
<deathmetalx_core> I heard u liked doomcore

Hey shuv, you were right!

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 23:17:15 GMT

Being paranoid is totally shit.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 14:35:43 GMT

Fuck sake, here come the waterworks again.

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 13:42:52 GMT

Bastarding family.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 13:13:16 GMT

Well. Fuck.

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 21:37:47 GMT

I worked out why I'm so upset. At least, for this week.

It's obviously because Shuvs gone off to stay with someone else, and part of her going involves her getting... comfort. Because she's not reachable, I'm assuming she's up to all sorts - and she has every right to be - but when I think of her being with someone else, doing things we didn't do for ages into our relationship, it.. well, it hurts.

But it's all very childish. It really is a case of want, a case of 'if I cant have her, no-one can'. I'm jealous and empty. I suppose it's natrual to feel like this, when you see your ex-lover go off with someone else (even if it is for meaningless comfort sex - I'd do the same if I could, especially with my clingyness), but it still feels petty and childish and therefore not really recognisable as a true emotion.

If she were to be properly involved with this guy, well... that'd be a different matter. But again, she has every right, and it's just me being natrually upset.

I just want her to come up for a bit, so I can... well, so I can see her again, and so I can know how I really feel. It's hard to tell what with not having seen since before we broke up. I've looked up prices for the week after I come back from London, but undoubtedly she'll make excuses (valid ones, though) and not come. And I'll still be alone.

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 21:29:21 GMT

I can't stop crying.

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 21:20:00 GMT

Okay, so... yeah. Dunno.

Things are kinda shit at the moment. But I guess I can't complain too bad.

Certainly doesn't feel that way, though.

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 00:31:08 GMT

Okay, so I picked up the new PC today after it'd been built. It has, however, shown an alarming tendancy to fuck up - I'm on the third install of XP tonight. I'm hoping it's just a bad copy of XP, or that the latest updates'll stabilise it. We'll see.

I'm gonna beg shuv for my Home CD back just in case, though.

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 23:02:29 GMT

Okay, looks like I won't be going to London to see Sol afterall.

What a cunt of a city.

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 13:42:31 GMT

Contrary to popular belief, venting is not some magical healer of emotional wounds.

In the words of Fran Katzenjammer, 'I keep buying things to cheer myself up..'. I've got a new PC lined up for that 500 I got from the council scholarship, I'm keeping an eye on a DDS4 DAT drive on eBay, and today I bought a new PVC top and a couple of pairs of gloves.

rm -rf *

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 21:38:18 GMT

What the hell am I doing?

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 15:58:04 GMT

'Isn't there a Polish delicatessan there? I keep meaning to try something from there.'
'Why? It's only an excuse to keep them here.'
'Yeah... hey, Leanne, see when you start voting, are you gonna go BNP? Or are you going to start with the Tories and work your way up the racist scumbag ladder?'

Cue much wailing and gnashing of teeth, which ends in the usual 'OH GOD WHY MUST YOU HAVE AN OPINION ON EVERYTHING' speech. Sorry, I'll be less sentient from now on.

So, apart from that little spat, things are okay. Uni isnt quite as hard as I've been dreading - though I do need to make a start on my project now - and I'm learning things of interest. So it's not turned into a chore, is what I mean. Recently I picked up three second-hand machines off Gordon - two K6's and a PII. One of the K6's is going to Pauline, one of the cousins, and the other ones dead. I ordered a board/CPU/RAM combo off ebay, though. The PII just about works, but it needs a network card, so I've ordered a trio from eBuyer for general purposes. The new WAP still hasn't been delivered, but I'm in no rush - it won't benefit me til I get a Wii at Xmas (I wanna wii!)

Grep yo momma.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 13:06:52 GMT

Argh, still feel squidgy.

Advanced Internet Technologies looks like it's gonna be fairly difficult. Oh, the shame, of finding something at Paisley hard! Reminds me, I need to make a start on the project - I'll try and get a hold of Gallagher tomorrow to arrange a time to meet about it between the end of SSS lectures and the start of the UNIX ones (no SSS lab tomorrow). Should start with some research into the viability of Internet-based applications, et cetera. Yawn.

Er... grandparents back tomorrow, so I'll need to tidy up a bit. But first, a wash, then the pigeons &c. Jesus, I need to do everything around here.

I ordered a new SATA disk so I can make a JBOD out of it and the current 250GB one - just because I can't be arsed making Windows recognise the disk as bigger than 128GB when it's in IDE mode (and I have a sneaking suspicion that you'd need SP2 to fix that issue in XP, so nuts to it).

Feh.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 14:56:14 GMT

Blargh, sick, pigeons, Wii!

Had a stomach bug Friday and yesterday, but I'm over it now - the most likely culprit is t'grandfather, who had the same before he went on Tuesday. Incubation period &c.

Copung fine with feeding the birds and hor-... dogs. Still got to clear up after Robinson, who doesn't trim the hoppers or do the water as often as it should be done (but then, I do the water every day, which isn't strictly neccessary). But he leaves doors and traps open when they shouldn't be, and so on. Lazy. I found one of the upstairs stock birds dead yesterday - it had got it's head wedged in a slot on the hopper, it had tipped, and crushed the bird's neck. It was quite surreal. And, bollocks, some of Bartlay's birds are still here because I failed to notice the loft they were in has a back entrance to an outside cage some of them were hiding in - add to that, some of our young 'uns might be in there from when the doors were opened, so... bah. It'll get sorted.

Sorted out module registration &c - I'm in Monday afternoon for Advanced Internet Technologies (J2EE, XML, Web Services, etc - all theory work) and Wednesdays for Server Side Systems (Apache/SQL/Python - finally, an Open Source class...) and UNIX Network Administration. I'll need to arrange some time in the week to see Gallagher about the project, but that'll be easy. So basically I've got plenty of time for a) project work, b) lounging and c) attending to the birds. Woot.

Er... yeah, that's about it, apart from standardised woes about computers, SATA disks, and Windows 98 (woe!).

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 12:56:03 GMT

OMG!!11 TEH ELV ONLU INN!!!12!1

Maybe me and Shuv aren't quite as split up as I first thought.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 10:47:47 GMT

Me and Siobhan split up the other night.

Okay, so it had been on the cards for a while; the extra levels of obliging and being tied down were weighing on her, especially with being physically apart as we are, so... yeah, she said she didn't feel like there was a relationship anymore. I'm ambivelant about it, but I always paint a happy picture regardless, so maybe I didn't see it as much. Anyway, we both agreed this was for the best.

There's not much loss. We're still best friends, and it's actually been better for the past few days because there's no... there's no feeling that you NEED to do this that and the next thing JUST because it's your partner. Of course this has thrown my entire sense of values out the window and forced me into my usual introspective mood, but I'm sure it'll pass. I hope us talking doesn't, that it's not just the post-relationship cooling-off period where you're really nice to each other before things get nasty. I don't feel like that'll happen though - I don't feel particularly bitter about it (unless I think about it too hard, which I'm avoiding doing).

It goes without saying I've got the whole longing thing going on, but that's perfectly natrual. I'm sure I'll find a new bike before long to satisfy my needs for clinging and breasts. Not too fussed on getting another at the moment, for obvious reasons.

In other news, Tiberius is coping well with 98. Okay, so it can't multitask for shit when another process involves multimedia or heavy disk access, but overall it's less of a pain in the arse than XP. I found a nice site with loads of 9x freeware programs, so I can get the same functionality. Pity I couldn't get Filezilla to work. D:

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:25:48 GMT

Well, todays been fun. I've tried Debian, MEPIS, SuSE and Mandrake on Tiberius, to little avail. Oh, SuSE worked where the others didnt (though I had to reinstall after I fuckled up my X config, or so I think), but trying to add things (like video codecs) was too much of a pain. I dunno, Linux just doesnt seem to have the out-of-the-box features that Windows does. I like the GUI, I like the programs, I like the ethos; I just dont like the effort you've got to put in.

It'd be great for me to work on the OS, build one from scratch and really get an understanding of it, but I just don't have the inclination to do that right now. I want a usable system that can run the software I need without too much fuss. Sod the inherent bugs in Windows, at least it's easy enough to use.

Yeah, so I'm betraying my inner geek.

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 19:09:51 GMT

Got paid again, have had to make some minor alterations. Rae's card was declined - apparently he's filed for bankruptcy. Waters'll find another one, he assures me, so once thats sorted I just have to implement the reccomendations of the search engine submission mob and I'm done.

Er.. I went for an interview yesterday, but it turns out it was call centre work, so fuck it. I'm not doing outbound calls, ever. Glasgow sent me an app for the library position, but I'm not gonna bother - I cant justify being qualified for it. I can't make working in an IFA's stretch that far.

I want shuv back. For... Monopoly!

Even though she cheats.